Hard Pill To Swallow

So...lately I have been reflecting on things that I should not be wasting my time reflecting on. I have had a hard time with the realization that " he was just not that into me". You know the expression. It is really hard when it applies to someone you have spent over a year and a half with. Someone whom you loved with all of yourself.

There really is no other explanation for it. Anyone who is "into" the other person in a relationship will make time for them. Once I realized this, while it was painful, really set me free. It took the responsibility off me. I realized no matter what I did I couldn't make someone feel something for me that wasn't there. So what I was faced with was an impossible situation. A one sided arrangement where the party with feelings involved (me) would inevitably be hurt. Run girl! Too bad I hadn't figured it out sooner.

Lesson learned.

Now I am so done with everything my relationship with the Big Fat Liar has thrown at me. When he drove by my house today, really slowly and stalker-like I waved. Nothing inside me felt anything. I waved as I would to anyone else going by. Yay me! And that my friends, is closure.